i know. don't start. i'm a slacker. i think that for once, i have a pretty good excuse, since i am growing a totally new human being inside me. a perfectly healthy, two dimensionally beautiful, 185bpm heart rate having, spinning, twisting, shy and silly little person who has taken over my heart so completely that she is in everything i do. i've seen her head, her chin, one shoulder, her spine, her ribs and the two tiniest and most delicate feet i've ever laid eyes on. (yes, for the purpose of this blog and for ease of wording, i'm sticking with the feminine. besides, my mommy intuition says this wiggleworm is a girl. sorry in advance if we're wrong, little Liam baby.)
no one ever told me about the weird quirks of pregnancy. sure, everyone talks about the constant peeing, the morning sickness, and the fatigue. i've never heard anyone complain about being 10 degrees hotter than the air around you. i only get cold when the temperature gets below freezing. right now, it's great. come may or june, i could spontaneously combust.
and the 'growing pains'. these weird, pulling, stretching pains. i wait in fear for the next sneeze, trying to be prepared for a potential explosion.
the stopped up nose. it needs to stop.
i complain about these things, of course, and there are more 'quirks' that irritate me (see: spontaneous projectile vomiting and bone deep fatigue), but seeing my baby swimming around in there makes it all worth it. and today, while sitting and procrastinating this week's homework assignment (i. hate. statistics.), i felt this...flutter. like butterfly wings in my belly. like tiny little bubbles. now, i know what you're thinking. it wasn't gas. i know what gas feels like. i asked two different women who had children, and they confirmed it for me.
it is very likely that i felt my child move today.
if that's not enough of a reason to keep me busy, i don't know what is.
